My Name Is Not Important

We took Ernie into the vet today to put him to sleep. The night before we did all of his favorite things and let him run loose on the floor. I gave him some of his favorite juice and his poor stomach was gurgling because of the tumor.

The vet wasn't our usual vet we take Ernie to, but she was very very kind. Usually they don't let people who aer putting a small mammal down be in the room with them because of how it works, but she was kind enough to let us hold him while she put in the initial sedetive. Seeing him sleep so peacefully in Josh's arm broke my little heart.

I've had pets before and I've had pets die but I've never been as impacted by a pet's death as I have Ernie's. He was just so special and so loving, and the cutest damn thing. He wasn't so sure of me at first, but after hanging out with him outside the cage he warmed up fairly quick. The first time he voluntarily went over to me he totally pissed ALL over me. Josh was mortified but I was all PFF WHATEVS NO BIG DEAL. A few months ago he peed on my lap because he'd been out of his cage for too long and again I found it more hilarious than disgusting.

I already miss him terribly, but I know that we did what we had to do. He was so skinny and so sick that keeping him around would only be selfish and wouldn't be in his best interest. Coming home to his empty cage was incredibly rough, but we're going to throw the cloroplast away and keep the cubes. Eventually Josh might get another guinea pig, but that's far far off.

We're getting him cremated and getting a little ceramic vase for his ashes. I'm planning on taking a few of the ashes and maybe putting them into a stuffed heart so that it'll be a reminder for Josh that Ernie's always going to be with him.

So yeah, if I'm not online it's not because I am avoiding anyone, it's because I'm working on feeling better and organizing and putting away Ernie's supplies for the future.

Thank you everyone who replied to my previous post. I feel like the luckiest broad in the world sometimes. I was lucky to be blessed with Ernie's presence, but I'm even more blessed when it comes to wonderful friends. I can't thank you guys enough, you all made me feel so very much better.